this is hard

this is hard. i have a sick child. allergies and asthma aint no joke. oxygen levels at 89. slowly rising with each breathing treatment. its been 4 days since she got her nebulizer. they want us to decorate this machine with stickers to make it"more of her own". vomit. plus the stickers they gave us are lame. my daughter deserves better than that.
so asthma.
a nebulizer
little dinosaur mask to make it seem cuter.
albuterol- a class of medications called bronchodilators
some other prescription to be inhaled through her nebulizer
steroids
and amoxacilin for a potential ear infection.

hell. might as well put her in a bubble.

she coughs all night. hates taking her medicine.

i have no money. my car is wrecked. we go to the doctor EVERYDAY to check her oxygen level.
pharmacy just called. they don't have her medication. fantastic.

the generalness in life

for the past couple of weeks i've been trying to figure out what i am really supposed to be doing in life. seems like everyone asks that question to themselves at some point in life.. but why doesn't anyone ever express this to people they are close with? no one i have ever known has openly contemplated the meaning of life. so that is my official goal, i am going to figure out what exactly i am here to do in the world, and I am going to make a difference, and i am going to be different from everyone else, and also I am going to teach nora that it is OK to not really know what life is about. and it is quiet possible that i am not meant to be some famous person, or specialize in anything specific. maybe i just need to make a teeny tinny difference, and that is what it is.
so to solve my problem, even if it takes my whole life, i am going to do exactly the things I want to do, without worrying about what others think, or if my house is perfectly clean, or if everything is in order. nora and Hector of course are top priority, but you know the saying "if momma aint happy, aint nobody happy!"
I am going to read every book I want to read, instead of cleaning every square inch that I resent doing.
I want to hike and rock climb
I want to write, even if it is just a 2 paragraph opinion thing on this blog. I just enjoy writing and I want to be able to do it more often on topics I think about a lot.
i also want to learn to play an instrument, like the guitar or harmonica, instead of wasting away my free time doing things that aren't making me happy.
AAAnd I want to get on a volleyball team or coach a volleyball team, i neeeed volleyball I have officially decided.

well, that's that. I know I will be writing more on this subject in the future.
new goal: to be in harmony with the world and my family. In every single aspect possible. peaace.

1st birthday!

So Saturday was Nora's 1st birthday party! Her real birth day is October 5th though. Everything went very smoothly, and nora looked absolutely adorable! I will post pics soon. ALthough she is not walking yet, I am a little disappointed, but what can ya do? SHe got a lot of amazing gifts! including big girl toys, several books, and stylish outfits!
Then today we woke up at 6 30 am to go to a falcons game, which was well worth it. Hector being here is really nice, those kind of events just aren't as fun with out him. CUrrently he is getting ready for bed while i sit in bed typing and waiting for him. Its a fantastic feeling.
SOon will be mine and Hectors birthdays, then our 2 year wedding anniversary, then thanksgiving and christmas and all that jazz. So we have a full couple of months ahead of us! We are hoping to go to amsterdam over the christmas break, but we will se how that plays into our budget.... i hope so!
Im starting a new book right now too, it's called "the happiness project", I bought it at anthropologie, its pretty freakin good so far. Ill keep ya posted on that too, ha i don't even know who I'm saying this too cause I don't know if anyone really reads this, but its a nice thought!
welp I'm ready to sleep tight.

bettering myself..

grr, so i am a little depressed with the way I look right now.
I am officially on a strict routine now. Washing my face and moisturizing twice a day.
Flossing and using my whitening toothpaste twice a day.
whitening my teeth like 3 times a week.
running for 20 min or so EVERY DAY!
doing my little 6 min shake weight workout everyday.
and doing an ass workout twice a day.
I would like to add in an ab workout also, but that's pushing it!
I am on Visalus twice a day, taking the shakes and vitamins and all the other stuff!
ahhhhh I wanna be skinny and pretty so bad! I was looking through old facebook pictures and i was very envious of myself like 2 years ago. I used to get up and get ready for something everyday, and now i just hang around the house, and no one ever sees my ugly ass.
If I could do all of the above, and get rid of my stretch marks before christmas, I will be a very happy person!
I've been doing visalus very strictly for 3 days, and semi strictly for over a week.
I am currently 2 pounds down. I want to loose 18 more. we will see how this goes!

back in georgia.. for good.

im back in ga. and i am not posting via my droid! starting on my long list of septmber tasks, as my new planner calls them! sending out 1st birthday invites are first. then so on and so on.
oh and my dredies are well on their way! -->

Published with Blogger-droid v1.5.8

WHew!

the baby shower has come and gone! now I am taking a little breather! everything went so well! I will post some pictures when i get them. my house was in tip top shape, the food was fantastic, and the desserts were gorgeous! We had 36 people here! and my house seems to be plenty of space, well at least when it's just me n Nora here, but then you add up to 30 adults, and the space just disappears. The weather was perfect so we got to open up our lovely french doors to the back yard so that definitely helped out. i spent all my energy on the shower, and then last night nora didn't want to sleep very long, at 5 am she woke up and stayed awake until just now. And i need to leave for work at 3:30. but it's all good cause I go up to see hector on wednesday!

I will be missing Jillian's last baby shower, and i feel pretty bad about that, but I really wanna see my hubby love. ANd then him and i are driving back down to GA together, which is always fun! And after Easter we are flying to Ohio to see his family (he has 10 days of leave). I am very excited about going to Ohio cause I'm not such a fatty now, still got some work to do, not necessarily on the weight issue, more about toning up. My legs just aren't the same as they were when I played volleyball, but I guess I shouldn't really expect them to be considering how much time I used to spend working out and playing. Plus Hector's family hasn't seen Nora since New Years, so she is gonna be getting some lovin! (like always)

Ok well I have to go put some clean sheets on my bed and do some straightening up. I have figured out that it is better to keep everything picked up all week long rather than just doing one big clean sweep at the end of the week. It just gets very over whelming!

busy bee

So hector is home, for good! Nora is kinda sicks :( I think it is just a cold with a sore throat. but that sore throat makes her not want to eat, so then being hungry make her not want to sleep, so it the sore throat causes large problems. oh well. 30 min after giving her infant tylenol her throat feels better and she can at least eat a bottle. so I just took a break from my blog and went to put nora down for a nap. ends up.. she doesn't like to be swaddled anymore!! I put her down swaddled and she cried and didn't want to go to sleep, so after about 3 min of that (normally she goes to sleep about 15 seconds after me putting her down) i just un-swaddled her and she went right to sleep!! soo great!! Anyway, I have been getting ready for Jillian's shower that will take place at my house in the 28th! That's 12 days!! and a lot of those days are already taken up by other showers and husband stuff. today is lunch with mallie, thursday is post-op appointment, then after that I am either driving or flying up to north carolina for a birthday party on saturday. then flying or driving back saturday afternoon. Painting my powder room sunday morning, then baby shower sunday afternoon. wow that's a pretty packed schedule. but then I have the rest of the week to do things for the shower. no sweat, nothing a perfect housewife can't handle. (I like to think of myself as the perfect housewife, even if it's not true I like to pay myself a little complement every once in a while lol) Well I'll write soon, maybe!



sick :(




This is nora at one of Jillian's many baby showers!