for the past couple of weeks i've been trying to figure out what i am really supposed to be doing in life. seems like everyone asks that question to themselves at some point in life.. but why doesn't anyone ever express this to people they are close with? no one i have ever known has openly contemplated the meaning of life. so that is my official goal, i am going to figure out what exactly i am here to do in the world, and I am going to make a difference, and i am going to be different from everyone else, and also I am going to teach nora that it is OK to not really know what life is about. and it is quiet possible that i am not meant to be some famous person, or specialize in anything specific. maybe i just need to make a teeny tinny difference, and that is what it is.
so to solve my problem, even if it takes my whole life, i am going to do exactly the things I want to do, without worrying about what others think, or if my house is perfectly clean, or if everything is in order. nora and Hector of course are top priority, but you know the saying "if momma aint happy, aint nobody happy!"
I am going to read every book I want to read, instead of cleaning every square inch that I resent doing.
I want to hike and rock climb
I want to write, even if it is just a 2 paragraph opinion thing on this blog. I just enjoy writing and I want to be able to do it more often on topics I think about a lot.
i also want to learn to play an instrument, like the guitar or harmonica, instead of wasting away my free time doing things that aren't making me happy.
AAAnd I want to get on a volleyball team or coach a volleyball team, i neeeed volleyball I have officially decided.
well, that's that. I know I will be writing more on this subject in the future.
new goal: to be in harmony with the world and my family. In every single aspect possible. peaace.
Monday, March 7, 2011
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